im so sad tonight, so drained, i dont know wether to stay or go. im so tired but i cant sleep. cant stop crying and even after cutting i feel no different just more scars that ill later hate myself more for, its a vicious horrible cycle. im disgusting. i wasnt enough for you, you wanted more. you always have. why are you even with me? even if you did love me like you say itd never be any good because ill ruin you, i ruin everything.